What God has been teaching me..
What God has been teaching me..
Well, this semester has been tough and challenging. I'm learning things about myself everyday. A lot of harsh realities, and a lot of places I need working on. God has been doing some amazing things in my life. Sometimes it is hard to have patience, and hard to see what exactly God is doing. But there is this lesson I think I'm slowly starting to learn.The lesson is BE. I can always change, always look at things differently, always BE a better listener, encourager, leader, etc, etc. What is outside of myself doesn't need to change. I need to change how I look at things (anytime I think my problem is out there that thought is the problem). And that it isn't about DOING, it is about BEING and learning to adapt and change everyday. It's not what we do in life, it is who we are. My inside needs changing. My outlook needs to change. And the harsh but crucial reality is that it is important for me to look at and examine things everyday. And I've realized that the only way I can do that is in my relationship with God. My relationship with God transcends to all aspects of my life, because it is in that intimacy where he knows me, and I know him that I can examine everything.I think this is what draws me to philosophy. And my current desire (in thought) is to really think and visualize how I think the world around me came to be. My own thoughts. And studying the history and progress of human thought. One of my biggest fears is that I feel I don't know myself. I don't know my wants, desires, values, and I struggle with identity issues everyday. So much so that it is hard for me to think of anything else at times.
Well, this semester has been tough and challenging. I'm learning things about myself everyday. A lot of harsh realities, and a lot of places I need working on. God has been doing some amazing things in my life. Sometimes it is hard to have patience, and hard to see what exactly God is doing. But there is this lesson I think I'm slowly starting to learn.The lesson is BE. I can always change, always look at things differently, always BE a better listener, encourager, leader, etc, etc. What is outside of myself doesn't need to change. I need to change how I look at things (anytime I think my problem is out there that thought is the problem). And that it isn't about DOING, it is about BEING and learning to adapt and change everyday. It's not what we do in life, it is who we are. My inside needs changing. My outlook needs to change. And the harsh but crucial reality is that it is important for me to look at and examine things everyday. And I've realized that the only way I can do that is in my relationship with God. My relationship with God transcends to all aspects of my life, because it is in that intimacy where he knows me, and I know him that I can examine everything.I think this is what draws me to philosophy. And my current desire (in thought) is to really think and visualize how I think the world around me came to be. My own thoughts. And studying the history and progress of human thought. One of my biggest fears is that I feel I don't know myself. I don't know my wants, desires, values, and I struggle with identity issues everyday. So much so that it is hard for me to think of anything else at times.
