Thursday, April 28, 2005 

Singles World

This one goes out to all you ladies...

So, I was wearing my shirt that says "Singles World" on it today, when Derek (BYX Derek) points out that I am THE bachelor here at CRU.

I'm single, I don't have car, I don't have a real job, AND I don't know what I want to do with me life... Did I mention, ladies, that I am single?

Friday, April 22, 2005 

Read this

Yes, another post about education. Read this, it is important.

The other day in one of my classes (Modern Democracy & Its Enemies), my teacher said something that struck me. This particular teacher is one who I personally admirer very much. He is a former Senator, has served on Congress, has been an Ambassador for three different countries, and was directly involved in trying to spread the word out about the Rwanda genocide by actually going over there and taking photos where mass killings had taken place, risking his own life. This is a man of deep integrity and principle, and someone whom when he speaks, EVERYONE listens.

His name is Bob Krueger and last class he gave a brief 10-minute talk about education, and just some simple words of wisdom that I've restled in my mind with since.

He said, education is important in the sense that it has the ability to CHANGE your life. This is the objective of education. To enhance the quality of our lives, and to help us live more productive lifestyles. As much as he enjoys getting an A paper from a student who has a nicely constructed analysis and argument, he believes that what is important is not how well that student does in school or the grade he or she makes on a paper, but rather if what they are learning now is going to be reflected 10 years down the road. If the education that we are receiving now, truly effects and changes how we live for the better.

There is no substitute for right living. You can be incredibly intelligent and brilliant, but intelligence unguided by deep principles of right living and LOVE, will not last. Happiness, therefor, is a matter of living rightly, NOT by how much you know.

The point my teacher was trying to make is that education succeeds insofar as it changes someones life. He said, the ONLY way one should teach is BY EXAMPLE, because it is only by example can a student really see how the MATERIAL that they learn effect how we live.

I'll clarify: The goal of education is to change/enhance/improve HOW we live. That is why we are here, in case any of you didn't know or have forgotten. I certainly didn't know. I knew I was here getting "educated", but didn't know to what end this was.

Educate yourself to live better!

And also, for anyone that cares, I am starting another blog... http://www.seekingquestions.blogspot.com

Monday, April 18, 2005 

Goals and Education

Every man reaps what he sows. Therefor, the ammount of work you put into education is the return product (by principle) you will get out of it. Being in a class isn't going to educate you. The work you put into a class is going to educate you. The work you put into learning the material outside of class is what is important. If you arn't putting in the proper time and energy into your courses then you will not be making use of your opportunity to get educated.

I say this, because in my case, this is precisely what I have done. Confessing, I have not had to put hardly any work into my education. For the longest time, I have had no idea what I wanted from college, until recently I decided on philosophy. This may largely be due to the fact that I didn't have to work to get into college.

I got by on the bare minimum, first making only a 1050 on my SAT and second applying the day before the deadline, to finally find out only two weeks before college started that I was accepted. Also, my parents have completely provided for tuition and rent, which has been a blessing to be sure, but again.. i haven't worked for any of it, and have assuradely taken my education and my parents providing forgranted.

But being in college definently doesn't mean I had any idea what I wanted out of it. Actually I had no idea. I'm still just barely getting an idea. This is probably why im in philosophy b/c it is helping me learn how to critically think on my own. Something I never really did before. I was still kind of just going through the process.

But now, as I have started to really evaluate my life and a lot of different things, I am forced to realize all of this. This is why I may take some time off from school, to really figure out and set out my own priorities, and figure out what I want to get from my education before I continue just taking classes.

I have to figure out what I want from college, so I can start trying to make the most of it. I don't want to waste more time and more of my parents money.

THIS is why I feel like this summer I should read a lot of books, and just spend a lot of time thinking, so maybe I can figure out proper direction. So my goals this summer are changing as I think about them more and more. But I realize this is very important for myself, and something I must do.

Thats all...

Friday, April 15, 2005 

The Inner Life

This idea of the "inner life" is very important to me. I don't know exactly how to structure this to make it flow smoothly, but I ask you to please read this. It is long, but important.

The concept of the Inner Life has been introduced to me since I became a Christian about a year and a half ago. Slowly.. but it is starting to make so much sense lately.

Christianity is an inner religion. Even more precisely Christianity in an inner relationship. Donald Miller in his book Blue Like Jazz makes a GREAT distinguishment between Christianity and Christian spirituality. This distinguishment makes all of the difference BECAUSE Christian spirituality is what it is all about.

We all know the word religion, in general, has a pretty negative connotation that comes with it. Christianity (and maybe Islam) are on the forefront of this negative outlook towards religion.

Christianity as a RELIGION certainly deserves such criticism. I'm not a history major, but I don't have to be to know that a lot of messed up shit has happened in the name of Christianity since its beginning. People have the right to be angry and hostile towards religion because it HAS caused a lot of harm. It has been the catalyst for a lot of bad things.

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Now I want you to think of the Pharisees. These are the guys Jesus always had issues with in the Gospels. The Pharisees were VERY religous people. They were Jewish so they believed in following the religious rules of The Torah (or ten commandments), these outward behavioral rules were the key to being righteous (righteousness was equated with prosperity) and the key to getting into "heaven".

Well these Pharisees are an example of exactly the way many people view Christianity and Christians as. They view religion from an outside view, and to them they have justified belief in thinking religion as this hypocritical thing that has been used for a lot of bad things. Because it has been!
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But what Christianity is really about has no affiliation with politics or "religion", but rather is an inward relationship with God--through his son Jesus Christ who died for our sins (inward and outward), and expressing itself through love. The commandments Jesus teach as most fundamental and important are: "Love God with all of yourself" and "love your neighbor as yourself". This is what Christianity is really about. Not the outward crap that is affiliated with it, or what "Christians" have used its name to commit its own desires.

This is a practice of spirituality. It is an inner life, an inner connection we have with God. It's not something we use as a security blanket to make us feel good, but rather something that has changed our lives through our relationship with it.

Jesus stresses this over and over and over again. Jesus says, "what does it matter if you gain the whole world, but lose your soul". What he is saying is your outward actions/possessions/whatever don't make any difference is you lose touch with your soul.. your heart.

The Bible says this, "Men look at outward appearances, but God looks at the heart."

To me, this is the true crux of Christianity--This inner relationship with God. All outward appearances mean nothing. This is a deeply personal, individual thing. Not a religion. A practicing act of spirituality with the Creator of the universe. The inner life, in Jesus' eyes, is all that matters. It is this inner life what is the true heart of the Christian "religion". It is this relationship.

I wish I could write with more skillful prowess to really get this message across, but i am not the most skillful writer. This means so much to me so I hope those of you reading this really think about it. Please respond if you have anything to say.

Maybe i will try to make a more concise statement about this later.

Tuesday, April 12, 2005 

What's wrong with our public education system

I am currently writing an essay for one of my classes which asks me to evaluate how I think my education prepared me for my participation in a democratic society. In turn, I have written about 11 problems I have with our public education system.

WARNING: This is very lengthy and not at all gramatically correct. This was more stream of consciousness. I have made no attempt to organize it so much may not flow. You may be advised to read just the UNDERLINE parts.
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My problems with high school (public school).

I have many issues with our public school system. Things that direly need to be changed. Putting no structure into this I am going to attempt to list my issues with the school system and illustrate with some examples.

1. My first issue with our school system is that it teaches students that what is important is memorization. Now to some degree memorization is helpful. In early years learning to memorize words and how to spell them is certainly helpful and effective in teaching because at that age kids are to learn the basic fundamentals (ie: the alphabet, how to spell, how to read). But as education goes on memorization shouldn’t play as fundamental of a role. Students should be learning how to critically think on their own. MOST of my tests were multiple-choice tests which if you memorized the study guide correctly you could pass the test. But this required absolutely no true comprehension of the material and no critical thinking. This required short-term storage and left no lasting implications. This includes fields such as history, science, literature, and probably everything except athletics. This is a major problem in the public education system.

2. Lack of one-on-one teaching. In public school there is NO requirement for one-on-one teaching. So unless your parents are really involved with your schooling the child has little direction and guidance. Inspired by Senator Krueger’s story about his education at Oxford I see this as very important. How can a teacher know how to teach his students if he has no idea where each individual student is at, and understand each students background and experience. What I would suggest is that the teachers would be required to meet with each student 2x every month. Which if your in the typical classroom there would be about thirty kids in a classroom, all a teacher would have to do is meet with 2 kids everyday for about 30 minutes each and it would easily cover it. One-on-one teaching I think should be essential in our education system to make sure the kids have clear guidance in what they do. To make sure the kids have some guidance.

3. Failure to teach what is really going on. What angers a college student more than finding out that once they come to college, a lot (read: most) of the things they learned were incorrect or not the full story. For example, learning in English that what the teacher wants is this rigid essay of: topic, thesis, intro, 3 body paragraphs + 2 supporting examples, and a conclusion. Or the famous: “Tell them what your going to say, say it, then explain what you just said.” I was told that numerous times in high school only to find out that in college the teachers don’t want that at all. What about history? Well come to find out that Columbus wasn’t such a great guy, and a whole entire field of history that we are never taught. Things that I am still learning (or rather, relearning). Come to understand that teachers want you to be able to critically think about the course material that we are learning, and memorization…eh, not so much.

4. Not allowing for individual creativity. With a required course curriculum that all students have to take, and no focus on one-on-one teaching, there leaves little room for individual creativity. How can creativity prosper when students have no real choice in the classes they have to take (with exception to electives)?

5. Failure of parents to guide the kids in learning. I understand that this isn’t a direct issue with the schooling system, but nonetheless a huge hindrance in kids academic growth. Both my parents worked a lot. Both of them were gone when I woke up, and not home until about 3 hours after I had already gotten out of school. Both of them were tired when they got home and one of them had to grade papers while she was at home b/c she’s a schoolteacher. Parents are very busy earning money to provide for their family’s back at home. My parents never made me do homework. They’d ask if I had homework to do. Sometimes I’d lie and say I didn’t. There were ways to get it done during lunch before class or right before school started and often I opted to do that. The 1966 Coleman Report found that “under the current American educational system the home is, except in the case of extremely good or extremely bad schools, the decisive influence on academic outcomes.” Home appears to be the dominant influence in kids education, so if kids parents do not play a very prominent role in teaching their kids, guiding their kids, and showing them the importance of their education, the kids more than likely won’t get a lot from their public education.

6. Kids left behind. E.D. Hirsch uses a brilliant analogy in his book “The Schools We Need & Why We Don’t Have Them” using a quote from the Bible to make analogous what happens with kids who fall behind. The quote is Matthew 13:12 which says, “For whosoever hath, to him shall be given, and he shall hath more abundance: but whosoever hath not, from him shall be taken away even that he hath”. This illustrates perfectly what happens with kids who possess little knowledge when they first arrive at school lack the relevant experience and vocabulary and do not have the mental foundation to understand new things. Thus they fall further and further behind. This gap is ever increasing as the kids around them who do comprehend the material can then use that material to grapple new ideas and adapt to new challenges. It is the enabling function which shows that relevant prior knowledge is essential at every stage of learning and why without it its almost impossible to learn something new. All newly learned material draws from what we already know. We have to relate it to our own experiences and ideas.

7. Core curriculum is not the same. The parliament of Norway said, “it is a central tenet of popular enlightenment that shared frames of reference must be the common property of all the people—indeed must be part of general education—to escape avoidable differences in competence that can result in social inequality and be abused by undemocratic forces”. This need to have some basis for what the nation is taught is central but their exists no national curriculum here in the U.S. Also, the idea that there exists a coherent plan for teaching content within the local district, or even within the individual school, is a gravely misleading myth. Most people accept it as truth that there is a local curriculum.

8. Standardized testing. Known also as the TASS test. Teaching kids to pass this standardized test was the goal of most teachers. Most of the test was aimed at elementary Mathematics and basic writing. And in our classes we devoted most of our time to preparing for this. We were not learning new ideas. We were learning how to pass this one test. We spent so much time preparing for this one test which was alleged to assess our intelligence.

9. Not conducive for independent thought. Coinciding with schools gearing towards memorization, standardized tests, and lack of individual creativity this creates an environment that allows for very little independent thought. One of the most primary goals if not the goal of education should be to teach a person to think for his or her self. This is rudimentary. But the truth is public education does very little to promote independent thought outside of maybe the honors program. And with social pressures all around students to conform and the “need” for kids to feel accepted it makes it all the harder to actually sustain independent thought about life.

10. Public Branding. Labeling kids as a certain kind of person does a lot psychologically to the rest of the group. For example, labeling a kid ”slow-learner” places the idea in this kids head that something is wrong with him. That he doesn’t quite match up to the rest of the group. Labeling kids as GT (gifted and talented) and placing them in special classes can make other students feel inferior. The fact that they cannot meet up to these higher standards.

11. Lack of standards for hiring teachers. Not much more needs to be said about this… Coaches…

Wednesday, April 06, 2005 

Freedom

I wish I knew more on this subject, but I want to write about this anyways.

It certainly doesn't feel like I am always free. Often I find myself doing things I don't want to do, or holding on to past mistakes or just past lines of thought. Freedom, I think, is something everyone longs for. Our country was originally founded on this principle.. life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. But I wonder how many people truly feel free.

How many drug addicts feel the freedom of choice. Despite their better judgement they keep returning to the thing that destroys them.

How free did you feel in Highschool? A system you have no real choice in being in. Classes you are mostly forced to take. In a place of rules, authority figures, tests, homework assignments, and not to mention the insane ammount of pressure you have to conform and win acceptance in other people's eyes.

How much freedom do you feel now that you are in college? Away from the restrictions of your parents.. free to choose how you want to live.. allegedly anyways. Hopefully your parents aren't urging you to persue some degree you don't really want to be in, but that they think will make them, I mean you, a lot of money and success.

How much freedom do you feel when you are afraid!? Do you feel you have the ability to choose?

If anyone gets this far, please reply and tell me what your ideas of freedom are, and how they apply to your life. And maybe even what your concept of what American freedom is or should look like.

Monday, April 04, 2005 

Life

So I couldn't focus in class today... my mind kept daydreaming. I feel like I have a lot to figure out. What exactly I have to figure out, I have yet to figure out. But I feel like there is a lot missing in my life. So if you've talked to me over the last month or read my blog, you may have heard me mention that I want to read a lot this summer.. this is probably because I realize that I just don't understand anything. Why I believe what I believe, what do I believe, what am I working towards.. just a whole bunch of questions I don't have answers to..

I'm caught in a crossroads so it seems. Where I am trying to figure out long term goals, as well as short-term goals. What I want to do with my life, what I want to do with school, what do I think is important and worth seeking.. as well as a major transitory period stemming from the change I can only attribute to God, and trying to figure out what the right path to follow is. For the true Christian path is alleged to be a very narrow road.

Sunday, April 03, 2005 

The Meaning of Life

A teacher asks his students to turn in their History assignment.

Calvin raises his hand and asks, "What's the meaning of life?".

"Just turn your paper in Calvin, we don't have time to answer these questions" , the teacher responds.

"Well", says Calvin, "I want to know the meaning of life is before I ever turn in my History paper".

This is from a Calvin and Hobbes comic, that Donald Miller quoted.

But I think its so brilliant. This is how I so often feel. What are we working towards? I feel like Calvin who wants to know what our purpose is before he turns in his assignments so that his work has some meaning.

I feel like the little ant dropped into a world, a giant system that I do not understand. How is my menail work really contributing to this world. What am I working towards? What's the meaning of life?